Still . . .

I watch you run
Like wolves through the forest
Fast and light
Barely touching the ground
As you rush to his side
You hold on tight
To his thin cold body
Checking his pulse and listening for a breath
You cry because you can't handle the pain
Tears stream down like curtains
Covering your once pigmented skin
You shake him and yell at him
Trying to bring back the motionless body
Refusing to accept what has happened
But nothing helps
He's gone...

I Saw You In My Dreams Last Night . . .

I saw you in my dreams last night
You stood above my headboard
You watched over me
You took me by the hand and led me into you arms
With a gentle smile on your face
You held me close and tight
Warmer than I remembered
I felt the tears fall from your face
As they joined mine
And fled to the floor
I knew this would be the last time
That I would never see you again
But still I cling to your skin
Crying with you and feeling timeless
You kissed my forehead
And as your lips left my wet pale skin
I woke up.

To A Dear Friend . . .

You will never know how much I care
How much I love every stare
How much I long to hug you
And how much I love you too

You will always be the one I look to
The one I can talk to
The one I can run to in the middle of the night
And the one I can depend on to brighten my day

But what I need you to know
Is how much you mean to me
Is how much I cherish you
And how much I need you

Because without you I can't do this
I know I tried to get rid of you
But I couldn't which is why I came back
I'm not ready to loose you

I'm not ready to say goodbye
I"m not ready to see you leave
I'm not ready to watch you walk away
And I'm not ready to see you die

Know that I am always here
Know that I am always near
Know that I will never leave you
Know that I will always need you

Know that I will always try
And know that I will always cry
Because a world without you
Just isn't fair
And a you without life
I just couldn't bare.

In Memory . . .

To all those who are silenced
I write to you
In honor of all that you have become
The respect you all have
Is moving.
The lost words are ones,
That scare others.
And to all those who are lost
Because of this silence
I write to you.
To all those who have fought
To all those who have won
And to all those who have lost
I write to you
About all that we have overcome
So to those who read this poem
To those who see these words
I am silent
For all of you.

Always Been You . . .

I've been thinkin' bout
All the days
We've been through
Wonderin' why they all look the same
I'm just lookin' back
Makin sure
That this is it
Wonderin' if we'll make it hrough
Is it right
Is it wrong
Or is it just in this song.

Pity The Super Mom . . .

Pity the super mom
Whose always doing things
Who always has friends over
Who always has needs
Whose always going here and ther
Whose never ever there
Whose always buying things for you
Whose always saying she loves you
Whose always kicking you out
Who always has to be right
I'm sorry...

Untitled . . .

The wind howls,
And you cheer,
For the undead rise again into power.
They capture our dreams,
And shatter our truths.
They make us question what we know,
And what we believe.
They surround us in their beauty,
And shine upon us like angels,
Bittersweet in their existence.

The Things I Could Never Tell You . . .

Rack my brain every day
And each day I long to tell you
How I really feel.

I wish you knew how stupid you were
To believe we would make it.
How every time you said I love you
It meant nothing.
How on earth can you be so vapid and shallow?
You give back to the people you don't know
Yet you don't know how to love your own family
You shower us with gifts
And then disagree with everything we say
How can you not see it?
The pain I love with every second
You sit and wonder why I don't engage
When people who have known me for two days
Can read everything about me in an instant
I'm an open book to the whole world and yet you still see gibberish

But it doesn't matter anymore
You sit at your high throne
Thinking everything is okay
Because when everything is said and done
I'll be the one on top
Because I see things you don't
I know how to love and how to show it
I've learned from the best
And i've learned the hard way
Something you never had to experience.
You lived this sheltered childhood
And I feel sorry for you
Because you grew up cold
Like a winter wind you can't escape from
You show yourself to the world
And feel ashamed
When I stand here strong and confident.

I know who I am
And I know that I am better than you
And when the time comes
I hope you finally see the monster
You have created for yourself
You are weak and fragile
And will never know what it is to be
Living.

Immortal . . .

How easy it was for you to leave
One look at me and then you vanished
Like smoke evaporating into thin air
You didn't look back.
My world collapsed
Like a wall of bricks falling one by one
Stuck on repeat.
My days became weeks and then months.
The nightmares of where you are
Sear through my veins like branding
Forced into my skin
Deep and scorching hot.
The thought of a life without you
Has now become my reality
I sit in the same chair day after day
And age with worry and emptiness
When you stand still
Not a year past seventeen.

My Heart . . .

Slowly dripping from my breast,

A red trail,

Drop by drop,

Leaving permanent scars on my soul.

What was i to know

That by such a young age

So much could taint

The flawless baby skin i used to have.

The wound opens and closes

As i let you in and you close me up.

It bleeds red, and orange, and purple, and blue,

For love, and passion, and trust, and sorrow,

Making it's emotions known,

With the words that it writes.

Unknown Death . . .

The stone
Exists in the vanishing ash of the meadow
I hovered over with my cold breath
Waiting mindlessly as i watched it disappear
Into the white silence
I tried to comprehend as i felt drops of rain fall on my skin
Resurrecting every memory i had exiled into dark
The pureness of knowledge led me to one conclusion
Eternity