Anxiety

Short breaths
Sweaty palms
Unfocussed eyes
Shaky limbs
Lost my footing

Head spinning
Time passing
Days blending
Time stops
Life hits you hard

Still They Don't Stay . . .

Because they were always there
Even though they didn't always agree
Still they supported me
Till the very end

From the beginning till the end
Regret was never in mind
Inseparable and unforgettable
Every second of every day; Special
Never ending companionship
Delivered to me by a chance of luck
Still they don't stay

I wish . . .

I wish I could show you my heart

For the sake that then

Maybe

You'd understand

If you could just see inside

To the walls of my skin

Thats where it all begins

Pure Bliss . . .

Heart racing
Thoughts stop instantly
Breath is taken
Face red
Body still

Holy shit.
Did that just happen?

What To Do . . .

Is it worth all the over thinking?
The pictures slide through my mind
Crossing from one side of my eyes to the other
All in a blur
What to do, what to do.
Key points pop out at me
Scratching the surface and leaving scars
On my once clear skin
Should I hold my breath and wait forever?
Or should I give up and just get over it...

How Dare . . .

I trusted you...
I gave my one true love to you,
In hopes that you would give her what I could not.
You have failed me.
You took this once porcelain doll,
Shattered her into a million pieces,
And left her to die alone.
I tried to pick up the pieces as best I could
From so far away.
You broke your promise.
You took the contract and ripped it in half,
Again and again,
Until just confetti laid up on the floor.
How dare you.
How dare you ever hurt her.
For that, I will never forgive you.

Demons . . .

The devil calls out to me
Screeching it's message across my brain, my eyes
I'm sotempted to go back to what i used to be
But something's stopping me...
It's not what they want
They want us to change
To grow and mature into the fiery demons we are meant to be
We toss and turn in our beds in the day
Having nightmares of terror and lust
Dusk comes slowly and we awaken
We light our candles on our candelabras
And run into the moonlight
So that the others can see who we really are

Slowly the others come out to marvel in our likeness
They see themselves in us
Realizing that we are all the same
As if they're looking into mirrors
They see their faces light up as ours
What were we so afraid of they ask themselves